Sorry ar...¦b¨º®É§Ú¯u«Y¦n­ø¶}¤ß... everyone there i dunno.. i just know u guys.. however, u just play wif your new friends... i am just staying there nth to do... feeling so separate wif you guys.. that's y i choose to leave..

sorry... my friend that i let u so down...

Now i am home... but just feeling nth really happy... coz always at home doing nth...

Last time, Julez told me that her depression hasn't really recovered... so worried about her... dunno wat i can do to her... aiiii... I am doubt that whether she likes pff or not... her reaction towards pff and jen is so **... Wat should i do?? How can i help her??

Yesterday i did know that my fwens won't accompany me on my birthday... really unhappy on that... i am thinking will this birthday be alone lei.... who knows... but i know it will be probably...

Yesterday i told him to **.... i know it's really bad... He asked me to think about it in this 3 month's time, but i didn't do it... i just say it out without any hesitating... Everyone told me that if i really dun like him, i should say it earlier... coz it is really cruel that u dun like him but u go out with him..

Now i think i have to think about it clearly b4 i make every decision, because once u regret wat u decide, it may also reflect another person.

Today i am not really happy coz i am thinking of having dinner with all my new friends that i know this year... however, no one is going to come.. i am now sitting in an Internet cafe... doing nth... I hope that when my birthday comes, it won't be the same as today la.... Or not i will be really sad...

Yeahee.... Two more days later, i will be at home... Thinking of wat to eat at home...

However, there is one thing happened that scared me a lot.. Tonite, J jeh sms me saying that she dun want to bother me anymore and say bye to me.. At that time i am so scared... i am so afraid that she will do something wrong to herself... Hopefully, Iris told me that she will be fine and her mum is looking after her...

She is going to leave on the 3rd la... Hopefully in hk she will be ok la... Hope that she won't scared me again....